Happy Anniversary!

Happy Anniversary my Sweet Love!
For you, I thank the Lord above
You’ve given me hope, inspiration and truth
Because of you I feel never-ending youth
When heavy storms have come our way
Your love has always made me stay
Each morning I wake and see your face
I know in you, I’ve found my place
Our bond is extraordinary, beautiful, and real
It’s remarkable how wonderful you make me feel
We belong together, you and I
That, the world cannot deny
Never in my life will I find another man
Who could ever fulfill me the way you can
The life we’ve shared these past 2 years
Has proved forever it shall persevere
I will love you forever in every way
That will remain constant until my dying day.

Our anniversary is on Sunday so I thought it would be fitting to share a few wedding pictures and honeymoon pictures.  Now I don't have many because we were trying to cut costs and just had one of my mom's friends do pictures for us, she did get some great ones, but I really wish I would have just spent the extra money and got some proffesional ones...what can ya do.  As for my honeymoon pictures we got some horrible ones because I forgot my camera (I was still drunk for our wedding night and I forgot to grab the camera on the way out) so I had to buy a disposable from the gift shop at our resort...I did a little editing so they look a little bit better but anyways that is a huge regret also, but the biggest thing that matters is that I got to marry my best friend 2 years ago and it was the best thing that has ever happened to me! I love him so much it makes my heart want to explode! Anyways I know I can be a little cheesy but that's just how I roll :-)

This is prolly one of my favorite pictures from the day. Chad looks so happy.  I will never forget walking down the aisle and seeing his face full of tears and a huge grin when he saw me. There are some things in life that are priceless.

our wedding party

my beautiful ladies, Emily, Beth, Katrina, and Anne

my adorable little ring bearer and flower girl, Tyler and Eva

I love this picture, my flowers were beautiful

haha this picture is a little weird, but I like it

this is when he first saw me before pictures

I need to find someone who got a good picture of out cake, it was amazing.  We froze the top and ate it last year on our 1st anniversary and it still tasted Delicious! We decided to start a tradition and get a small little cake every anniversary from the same bakery that we got our wedding cakes Olde Towne Bakery. MMM I love that place, the top of our cake was Lemon with Buttercream frosting. every layer of cake was a different flavor and they were all so great.

our first dance

We danced to Nsync "This I promise you" LOL its fitting because I was a huge fan

Our little family minus Miss Aubrey

Anne burping little Ty, aww look at his little feet!

I can't believe how little they are! Payton is now 11, Eva is 3, and Tyler is now 2 and a half! Where does the time go?

bouquet toss

this is me drunk at the end of the night. LOL

On to our HONEYMOON! We went to Riviera Maya in Mexico, although I was missing my little baby Tyler like crazy we had a blast! We were there for 4 days and 3 nights. We had romantic dinners, we swam with dolphins, we went to a Michael Jackson impersonator show (weird because he actually passed away not too long after) We went to a little club in our resort and danced the night away, we layed by the pool and swam up to the bar. I want to go back! We are planning on it for sure for our 5 year anniversary, I hope it actually happens and I remember my camera! I think it would be fun to go with a group so if anyone wants to go in 3 years with us let me know!

ahh the breeze on our balcony was amazing.

You can't see if but the little card said Mr and Mrs Lightner, I was excited about that to see it in print for the first time!

Chad got a little burnt LOL, I told him to get a base tan before like I did, but he didn't listen...guess he learned his lesson for next time. And I am always taking pictures of me kissin him! haha!

This is a love story that will never end...

So my parents are taking the babies overnight on Sunday for our anniversary (Chad is off Monday for Memorial day)  and we had it all planned to go antiquing, and have a romantic picnic with our cake and some wine, but it is supposed to rain so we will have to make do and just try to enjoy the time we have with each other.  Having kids has taught me one major thing in life, if things don't go as planned its no biggy! There is no use in getting uspet and wasting your time! My new Motto is "Don't sweat the small stuff"  I will def post after our anniversary on how it went! Have a great Memorial weekend everyone!

Photos

OK so I am officially obsessed with editing my photos. I have been begging and begging my hubby for a new camera (one of the huge expensive kinds) because I really want to learn how to take awesome photos. He agrees we really need a great camera and I really want to even take classes (its on my bucket list along with learning the piano), but for now I found that editing on photo bucket makes them look great with just your plain digital camera, this will have to do until we take the next step. I just love to sharpen them and adjust the color for that "high definition" effect. 

i also like to blur the edges a little to give it kind of a whimsical look.

he loves to help

I LOVE how bright this picture is and I love all the different colors!

big brother little sister

they have my heart and they know it :)

Anyways I just thought I would share, I guess I should have put the before and after pictures, but oh well! TGIF!

When You Say Nothing At All

So I was having one of those days, where nothing was going my way. I had no time to even shower, I messed up my diet by eating one of my weaknesses pizza so I decided to work out at nap time, 10 mins into it, right when I was breaking a sweat Aubrey calls for me. (yes I like to say she calls instead of cries)  Of coarse I am flustered and frustrated that I have to stop and go tend, but when I get in there I am greeted by the most beautiful baby ever, she instantly starts to smile and coo at me when I am trying to get her to go back to sleep by rocking her, but she just wanted to look at Mommy, my bad mood turned into a wonderful mood because I realized that there was no other place I would rather be then with my bright eyed baby.

I can't believe how big she is getting already!

Finally at 10:00 pm I am in the shower, I am humming an old favorite tune of mine when I decided to start singing the lyrics, and something just clicked in my head. I hop out of the shower and find it on youtube right away and instantly start to tear up.  This song explains our unspoken bond. I love her with all my heart and all I have to do is look at her and know she feels the same way...I truly am blessed.

Summer Weight Loss Challenge!

So my last post I was kind of being a, lets say a "Debbie" about my weight.  I am going to finally step it up and do something about it now! My Mommy group is doing a Summer weight loss challenge and everyone who is doing it is putting in 10 dollars and whoever loses the most body weight % wins the money! I think it is up to 130 bucks so as far as I am concerned that is enough motive to try, and really I think EVERYBODY WINS!  I love the idea so here is my plan:

1: WW.  I am  going to try again with it.  Even though I was getting a little frustrated it in the end last time, I am going to try but this time instead of still eating my pizza and just counting it in my points and then starving at the end of the day because I could only eat a little dinner, I am going to try to turn into a rabbit and eat way more GREEN food! That way I will be able to eat more through out the day and stay more filled up, I think this is always where I fail when it comes to this diet.

2:  I am going to try my best to wake up and exercise 6x a week, I am going to rotate, from my 30 day shred DVD, my Yoga DVD, and going for jogs/walks in the morning...thats right the morning so I am going to start setting my alarm for 6 so I can work out before Aubrey and Tyler get up...this is was I am going to need to get motivated for, and I can see it being a struggle because I am not a morning person but I think I will benefit in more ways then one and once I get used to it I would like to think it will become one of my favorite parts of the day...I will try to go to bed early from now on and making my bed time be 10:00 pm every night (another thing I will have to train myself to do)

 My goal: I would like to lose about 15 lbs to start...Tone up my butt and thighs and lose my spare tire (the "baby weight") I think this is a doable goal I just need to stick with it! I also want to work on my endurance and flexibility during this time so I am able to work out with out wanting to throw up or quit...I want to be one of those people who really like it! 

Anyways that is my plan, wish me luck! I will be taking a before and after picture and I will post it when I am finished! WISH ME LUCK! project Hot Momma is in full effect starting tomorrow :)

10 lbs

10 lbs...I hate you, why won't you leave me? Nobody wants to see you here anymore.

So since having Aubrey, I have lost all my baby weight except for a pesky 10 lbs that I just can't get rid of, I was doing weight watchers but lost motivation when I stopped losing weight.  I don't know how I am going to get this weight off! I know I need to work out but the problem is is that when the children are sleeping I am so tired that I am either sleeping or relaxing. I don't know what to do about this and its really starting to bother me!  I want to join the Y so I can just drop them off at the daycare, but I really don't want to do that until Aubrey is 6 months...and sometimes I don't even think i'm ready to hand her off until shes a year. I even thought about trying that stupid Hollywood diet drink to lose the last 10 lbs but you know the second I put any food back into my body it will just come right back! Maybe I will try it and then start working out, I am desperate! I want to look good in a swimsuit but sadly I don't think this summer it will happen :(

darn it.

Sunshine!

Its May 2nd and the sun is shining! I can't believe what a little sunshine does for the soul! Looks like Aubrey is enjoying the beginning of spring as well! My little smiley girl! :)

For the last few days I have been in a funk, and a big one! I actually was starting to think I had post partum depression or something because I was feeling so down, but with a little spray tan, some hair color, and some sunshine I am feeling SOOOOOOO much better!  I must say thank you to my amazing husband has been there trying to make me feel better everyday and sticking through my "Eeyore" attitude! He is so great to me.

So the other night I was in the living room feeding Aubrey and Chad was in Tyler's room with him getting him ready for bed and all the sudden I hear Chad reading Tyler some bedtime stories, he read him 3 books and it just made me so happy, and just  reinforced how much I love my husband, he is so amazingly great with our children and I am so lucky to have him! I wish I could tell him every day how much I appreciate him even when we are getting on each others nerves!  Since its May, our 2nd wedding anniversary is coming up and we decided not to get each other anything, but the traditional anniversary gift is cotton, so I am trying to think of something cool that I can do for him still because I just love him so much and I want him to know it! We have talked about going to Galena and spending the night and starting our tradition of getting a small cake from the place we got our wedding cake :) I love starting traditions :) and I am so excited to continue them with my Hubby! And the thought of eating our delicious "wedding" cake in Galena is making me so excited!

this is a classic picture of us, one from when we were just a new couple, I love it because it brings back so many great memories of the butterflies I used to get when I saw him! I will always have a copy of this framed in our home.  Even when we are 80 years old!

Anyways, Tyler is doing good, we took a break from potty training, but I think we will start up again soon, I am really trying to let him do it on his own time because I don't want to make him feel pressured at all! He asked to put on big boy undies today so I let him wear them for a while and no accidents so thats a start! 

Aubrey is now sleeping from 9ish pm to 5ish am...then she gets a bottle and goes back down until usually 8am...Today she just skipped the 5 o'clock bottle and woke up at 8 so that would be GREAT if she just started doing that from now on but I won't get my hopes up :)  I don't really mind getting up with her because its our time to bond :) She is starting to have more head control and just smiles away she coos, but she looks like she wants to laugh soon! I can't wait for that! Boy we have came a long ways from the tummy issue days! I am so happy she is feeling better (she still has a little bit of tummy aches from time to time but its so much better)  I am still trying to get her to sleep flat in the crib or pack and play, but she still only likes to sleep in the nap nanny so my goal this week is to see if she will sleep in her pack and play at all...we will see!

I hope everyone had a great weekend!